I'm so tired but every time i close my eyes to try to sleep I panic and have to get up and go through the apartment with my maglite and check all the closets and everything one more time. I swear I keep hearing noises and seeing things and it SUCKS. I want my boy :-(

Ryan finally called. He only just got back to his hotel room. He was having dinner\drinking beer with the work peoples. I approve 'cuz he needs to make friends at work. We just need to have a talk about consideration of Kristina's feelings when left home alone. He might let me adopt one of the kitties I fell in love with today. Yaay...

I am a wee bit tipsy...

Well, in keeping with his past habits, Ryan has failed to call me (as he promised he would) and has also not answered any of the 6 or so calls I've made to him. Go away overnight for the first time and leave me in a strange apartment and then become unreachable. Good show. Guess I am not sleeping tonight after all. ::Goes to make herself a drink::

My Wacom tablet is acting up. Two of the prongs in the USB cable plug broke off at some point, so 99% of the time, it isn't working. I need to get a new one, but they're so expensive now. Moreover, I need a job to pay for it AND that Digimon Tamers DVD set I've been drooling over (because I love Tamers so very, very much).

Anyway, because I am headachey and can't draw with my tablet out of commission, it's time for Unpopular Opinions pt. x+n.

1) Every now and then I see the following excuses from rapists and sexists: "she's dressing like she's asking for it," or "it's her duty to put out no matter what," etc etc etc. You know the drill. News flash: each time these men try to shove off responsibility onto the victims, guess what? You are saying, if only subconsciously, that you can't control yourself and are not man enough to own up to your mistakes. Good show, you have the maturity of a toddler. Correction: my 4-year-old niece has more self-control than you. What especially pissed me off was that Austrian man claiming he was addicted to incest and imprisoned his daughter for 20+ years. Sorry, sir, you are a beast and everything you did was premeditated, as proven by the fact that you built a dungeon especially for your daughter's imprisonment. While abhorrent, these carefully-laid plans are not acts of get-out-of-jail-free-style insanity. No one asks to be raped. Ever. Claiming that they did is childish.

2) I've been reading summaries of Twilight. Yes, that. It's kinda reassuring that if bullshit like that is popular, I have a chance at publication. Also, I keep imagining Saberhagen's Dracula verbally bitchslapping (in his pseudo-polite, snarky way) Edward, Lestat, and Louis for being pussies and pathetic excuses for vampires (Alucard from the Castlevania series gets a free pass to angst from daddy-from-another-universe, if just because watching his mother burned at the stake is traumatizing, and we won't even get into his relationship with CV!Dracula). I really should write it sometime.

3) Every time I hear someone whining about being oppressed on the internet, I just have to roll my eyes. I'm sorry, but unless you live in a nation that heavily censors anything you read, you are not being oppressed. Oppression is being sent to work camps in bitterly cold Siberia just because Stalin doesn't like you (switch that out for the Laodong Gaizao [Laogai for you Avatar fans] and the PRC government). It's being locked away under house arrest because you're not a hardcore supporter of the political party in power. It's having to censor your own thoughts because even your family and friends might turn you in just to claim your fancy Moscow apartment as their own. It's being gunned down, raped, or thrown into gas chambers for being a minority. Oppression is many horrible things, but it's not: people disagreeing with you over the internet, your parents grounding you for going out at night, or any other minor strife that pales in comparison to real oppression.

Anyway >_>.

( figuring out how to work Star Gladiators. Ignore this part. )

I don't mean for some of the things I've said about living with chefs to imply that Chris deprives me of food altogether. He fixes food for me quite often (things like grilled cheese and quesadillas, and he heats up tomato soup and makes toast points for me when I am sick. The times he really cooks for me, it's true, are few and far between -- but he's doing it tonight. He has several large, meaty, highly penile, delicious-looking oyster mushrooms left over from his St. James Cheese Company event on Saturday, and he went out earlier to get the special arborio rice that is the only kind he will deign to use, and he's going to make me a lovely, comforting, creamy mushroom risotto and some roasted asparagus tonight.

At Mass on Sunday, we sang a lovely hymn called "There Is A Balm in Gilead," a beautiful old African-American spiritual. So why does my horrible mind insist on regurgitating it as "There is a bomb in ziggurat"?

New eBay auctions are up: copies of The Seed of Lost Souls and Guilty But Insane; Issue #3 of Subterranean Magazine featuring the last (for a while, anyway) Dr. Brite story, "Crown of Thorns"; a first edition of Drawing Blood with an original ink sketch and handwritten text from the novel (the creepy bathroom scene in chapter 15, which I always rather liked).

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So, Ted and I have been working on Cloud Nine's Battle Outfit redo nonstop for the past few days. Well, I think it was more like working on it two days for a combined total of 12 hours, but close enough! We took the newer bodice I was making and pinned it up, cut it apart, made a new pattern with some excess fabric I had (since well, no muslin, but close enough) then worked on the new material. I got extremely frustrated with some of the cutting since it was 2-way not 4-way stretch and it threw me off, but it looks pretty good save for me not being sure entirely what to do to flatten the chest - at the moment, it's like pointy-Madonna-cones-on-chest and well, that won't quite do, lol.

I also need to whip out the interfacing and try to get some more clean cut/precise work done. Some of this will be a nightmare - try all of it, actually. But well, trying to keep track of it. Ted, thanks so much for the help.

Another concern I have is Lestat's frock. With the colour, I want to try and do one of those darker evening frocks and see if I can get a nice brocade to make a vest with. Not sure about the breeches yet, but that can wait a little. I also need to find a good, blonde wig for him, and decide whether my blue contacts are enough, or if I should save up and spring for the $100 "Lestat" contacts.

In terms of tips, any suggestions for some better bodice fitting? And embroidery? I'm very used to making men's clothing and coats, and also with the severe lack of tits these don't exactly fit the way I'd like 'em to.

Future Conventions:
I'm trying to figure out what to do.

AUSA - will depend completely on school and funds. The only new cosplay I'd have for it would be Lestat, unless I finished up some of the stuff I have in progress. Money's tight, and for school at the moment I absolutely cannot afford to fuck up my grades if I want a shot at grad school. But also, really DO want to go, and would be fun to have a Louis to make fun of.

NYAF - Mixed on this. It's close, which is good, but I heard the con itself really sucks. Who's even going to it? Is it worth it? Hn...

Katsucon - would LOVE to do this, and I'm pretty much planning on it. Ted and I were thinking get a good photoshoot for Cross/Cloud at that, and maybe we can get Elie to join us as Lau Jimmin, or any of our other Generals. The Cross/Cloud could also be cute since they're one of my otps and I think Katsu's on Valentine's - I think it'd be adorable to have a picture of Cross trying to mack it on Cloud, and then Lau trying to bite his head off. ... I'm a strange one, yes. I'm going to plan on this for now, though I suppose it's subject to change.

Wicked Faire IV (Willy Wonka Theme!) - Jeff, PLEASE say this isn't the same weekend as Katsucon. Because then, I can definitely go. If that's the case, since I always have to deviate from the theme, probably I'd bring one of my Allen cosplays there, though maybe Lestat would be more appropriate (if I can drag JF with me). But... Tuxedo Allen would be sexy as all hell there.

... & I'm late again. *Facepalms*
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>> I think I've left it a little too long to post a new theme for this week, but there'll be something up on Monday.

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Ryan is away for work until tomorrow evening. That means I am home alone tonight. I am not pleased. :-/

Lynnea is visiting today, I think. Yaay! :-)

I dunno what I am going to do tonight. I am very nervy here at night, because we are a garden level apartment so it would be SO simple to break in and kill us. I can't imagine being here alone all night. I mean, I am not used to the place yet so it is scary. I might set up my futon in the living room, lock all the windows, leave all the lights on, stick an anime DVD in, and spend the night watching anime and dozing. I am sure I'll get used to being alone overnight, but it is just too soon right now. Things will also get better when we get a cat. Furry company makes me feel safe, even if it is just a cat that would look on disdainfully while I get raped and stabbed to death by the scary man that crawled through our window. ...And now I just freaked myself out. Woo...

Meh.

Salva Nos Gaiden 1: Pictures at at Exhibition
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In other news, I am a failure as an artist.

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Title: I Feel So
Pairing/Charater: Stan/Kyle
SFW?: Huggles! It's not even ghey, if you don't want it to be :P

It can be viewed both at my deviantART and my Y!gallery!

Drawn as fanart for Brat-Child3s fanfic I Feel So =D

Read the Artist Comment :3 Oh, and please comment ^^

Hey everyone! I'm Custom Magnum and I'm new to this community.

And I come bearing a fic that I've already posted on both digimonfics and digimon_savers.

Sorry if I kill some of your f-lists, and if you guys don't want me to post announcements here again, just let me know.

Anyway...

Title: Broken Dreams
Series: Digimon Savers/Mutli Digimon series X-Over
Rating: PG13/T
Genre: Adventure/Drama, AU
Story Summary: Ten years after the fateful fight against Yggdrasil, the lives of DATS agent Daimon Chika, Trainee Noguchi Yuka, and Relena Norstein take a turn for the convoluted as rising tensions finally explode into action.
Chapter Summary: The group gets out of Yokohoma, and now a week long break for them is about to begin.

Chapter 6: Needed Vacation

Crossposted to digimonfics and digimon_savers.

And if you haven't heard of the fic before, click here to go right to the beginning.

Ryan just left for work!


....now I have to go do my job and get this bloody apartment clean again. :-( I think I will nap first, though. For the record, being up until 3am with nerves and then getting up at 6:30 to make breakfast for your man-thing is NOT fun!

Ryan starts work in the morning. He is not nervous, but I am!

We went on a Middle School Date tonight....mini golf and ice cream :-) It was fun.

Not much else to say...things are going well...

I'd had a few requests for a Bellatrix vs. Bella Swan picture, most of which were more or less suggested some kind of brutal mauling, but I thought about it for a little bit and decided ( Bellatrix might quite like Twilight. )

In other news, daaaamn Phelps! Tonight was actually the first night I had watched any of the live footage lol.. I was way excited. USA ftw.

So. Back in my apartment. I feel bad about leaving my parents to deal with my sister and her kid's messes.

I need to draw tattoo designs for my youngest sister soon.

It's too goddamn hot in my apartment and no matter what I do, I can't seem to get rid of that old-people smell that settles in whenever I'm gone for longer than a week (note to self: spilling a BPAL imp may not be such a bad idea. Maybe a spritzer bottle and heavy water dilution will help? Then my apartment can start smelling nice again. Like Yog-Sothoth).

I need to actually sit down and write, except right now I really don't care.

I need to wrestle with Disability Services and the bank on Monday, and Social Security once I have an appointment set up. None of this will end well, I'm sure.

ETA: Well, bugger. There was a power outage at some point during my vacation, which reset my VCR recorder and I missed recording the first four episodes of Jeremiah season 2. AGAIN. Damn. MGM really needs to put out season 2 on DVD already.

Hi hi, I'm glad this is an active community. I love Digimon so  thought I'd join.

I've seen all seasons except for half of Frontier, but my fave seasons are Tamers and Savers in terms of characters, Digimon, plot, music and such. They're also more serious than the other seasons.

My birthday was on August 10th, and I did get several Digimon related items, namely a Digivice iC Burst (Japanese version) and the Digimon Savers Best Hits + Character New Songs CD. I love the music on that CD, and I currently have a Sleipmon on my Burst.

I like to draw, but I'm not very good at it. I draw some Digimon fanart from time to time, and here are some examples of my drawing style.

WARNING

I'd advise you not to go elsewhere when you click on the links. Furaffinity hosts adult material as well as the general stuff, so I wouldn't want you to go stumbling into a page you don't want to see.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/922814/  - Gaomon and evolutions
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1270908/  - Agumon and Gaomon evolutions
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1002726/  - Various Savers Digimon

If you guys have any questions (could be anything, like what is my fave Digimon or whatever), feel free to ask.

P.S. Arrgh, sorry but I don't know how to make links in LJ.

P.P.S. You should change the community profile. It doesn't mention Savers.